Friday 12 May 2006

Van Lesbeen tot Skeef!

Ek mis dai dae... die keer toe jy my gemoer het in jou kamer
Na jou wyntoer! Want ekt blykbaar vir jou gelag...

Ek mis die aand ‘n paar jaar later toe jy my op die koshuis bed neergemoer
En gegryp het!

Ek mis ons fok ops op julle bunkerbeds se onderste bed terwyl sy weg
Was!

Ek mis jou steak maak en macho geit!

Ek mis jou beheer en my patetiese dependency op jou!

Ek mis jou geskrewe.... koffie gedig oor my!

Ek mis jou lepellĂȘ met H in die kamer op die ander bed!

Ek mis ons aande saam....
Met koffies laat nag en net die potential....

Ek mis jou squash games..... moer die balle stukkend......!!!
Ek was goed maar jy was beter – so unfair!

Waar het dit als heen gegaan?
Waar is ons outings onder die maan?
Ons het nooit eers gaan stap in die laan!
En nou het jy besluit jy kan nie daarvoor staan!

Sunday 15 January 2006

U & I

Sun, 15 Jan 2006
So, I have been enquiring into: me being someone who writes instead of speaks....
And I really see it EVERYWHERE in my life. Interesting, sad and upsetting!
So I WROTE about it: (it's still in draft form!)
U & I

I cannot face yoU
So I WRITE you

I cannot speak to you
So I really listen well

I cannot open my mouth
So I encourage you to sing your song

I cannot touch you
(So I let you touch me)
So I just look from the outside

I cannot get/come close to you
(cos then you'll see! / I'll be found out!)
So I am always far enough to JUST be close enough!

I cannot be with you
So I draw you
write you down
So I remove you from me in my drawing of you

I cannot love you
So I pretend to like you!

I cannot hide you
So I (pretend) that I am proud of you
So I show you off! (pretend to be confident)

I cannot have you
So I throw you away (constantly)

I cannot be you
I am not you
(I do not want to be you)
I am you
I am not
I am
U
I

I just wanted to share that... for no reason I can think of or any reason that you prefer!